i started working on this piece for the Queeratine Anthology but then realized that i cannot use it for that which sucks because i like it. love sucks. scroll down for poem and audio
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drift aka dry p2: wet
i want to make you
– wet
i want to make you
– cry
from joy
i want to make you
– burst
from orgasm
i want to see you
i am so
– stupid
i keep coming
back
even though
you
only
reject
me
is this love?
(only if)
stupid is next to i love you
you only
– need
-ed
to be
nice
to me
i would have
– loved
you
i did love you
love
burst
my heart
fragile
sewn together
at the seams
of past
– heartbreaks
i never asked you for anything
i wanted you
i wanted all you attention
i wanted
– you
to be
– nice
to me
i never realized that was asking too much
the coldness
in your eyes
as they wouldn’t didn’t
look at me
– as they
ignored
my existence
i heard the
shatter
in that moment
as my
heart rupture
if you would have
– looked back
you would have seen me topple
in pain
almost falling over
a pain i welcomed
as i knew
it meant i could
stop
loving you
…soon
soon i will stop loving you
you helped
after that
– moment
after i decided to
reach out again
fearful of future
awkward
social situations
i served my heart
– for you
on a platter
i made art
i was already making art
about you
that day
so i shared it
knowing
knowing
you would
never
– love me
i would never
– hold value
i would
– always
be disposable
but i have a secret…
– i am better than that
i am worth more than the value you give me.
– you
you have been a lesson
– stop loving narcissists
time for me to
graduate.
